October 2012 - Corporation Beach, Cape Cod

We took a long night walk on the beach, almost a hour to the end and back.  Most of it spent in small talk,  commenting on the stars and leaping over inlets that made it impossible to keep shoes dry during this low tide.  As we headed back on the final stretch, I overcame my fear of being rebuked and asked my son, the college freshman with the newly started beard, if he'd hold my hand.  Just for a minute, I added.  Without an answer, he reached out and clutched my hand, holding on longer than I'd even hoped for.  In that moment,  I had the realization that no matter how long I had to live, brief or long, everything was good and as it should be.   A moment of thanksgiving.  

“One of the strange things about living in the world is that it is only now and then one is quite sure one is going to live forever and ever and ever.
One knows it sometimes when one gets up at the tender solemn dawn-time and goes out and stands out and throws one's head far back and looks up and up and watches the pale sky slowly changing and flushing and marvelous unknown things happening until the East almost makes one cry out and one's heart stands still at the strange unchanging majesty of the rising of the sun--which has been happening every morning for thousands and thousands and thousands of years. One knows it then for a moment or so. And one knows it sometimes when one stands by oneself in a wood at sunset and the mysterious deep gold stillness slanting through and under the branches seems to be saying slowly again and again something one cannot quite hear, however much one tries. Then sometimes the immense quiet of the dark blue at night with the millions of stars waiting and watching makes one sure; and sometimes a sound of far-off music makes it true; and sometimes a look in someone's eyes.”   Frances Hodgson Burnett, The Secret Garden